a darker paradise

Love Hurts

2009-08-18T12:53:00.004+08:00

This Incubus song didn’t make it to Asia but its one of my favourite song. It’s a very simple song about love, yet profound and intense with emotionally charged melodies. There is hollowness in the music that is almost haunting. But I guess its no surprise considering all Incubus lyrics are so insightful that it naturally forces you to contemplate.

The song is about the idea of love, to find love and having it be pure, and not be tainted by your misperceptions, misconceptions, expectations and transcending the sort of more worldly aspects of the love experience.

Tonight we drink to youth
And holding fast to truth
I don't want to lose what I had as a boy
My heart still has a beat
But love is now a feat
(as common as a cold day in LA)

Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder
Is there a spell that I am under?
Keeping me from seeing the real thing

Love hurts.....
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart and try me
Cause without love I won't survive.

I'm fettered and abused
Stand naked and accused
Should I surface this one man submarine?
I only want the truth
So tonight we drink to youth
I'll never lose what I had as a boy

2009-08-03T07:46:00.003+08:00

I read this somewhere and felt that it was bout me, but hey, it could be bout you too......

I went to work this morning, sleepy, tired and grumpy

Tripped on the rug, spilled coffee all over my blouse

I sifted through the mail, there was much I had to do

I stood up for a second and dropped ink upon my shoe

The phone rag ten times before it finally stopped

It was a typical Monday and I felt I might just dropped

I got the Monday Blues, wish I could go back to yesterday

I got the Monday Blues, Friday seems so far away......

Things you think on Monday.....

2009-07-27T10:18:00.002+08:00

The Party's Over........

2009-07-03T13:41:00.011+08:00

Time really flies........ It's all over now, just pictures to remind you of the good food!

Thanks to everyone's cooking skills, not forgetting the photographers too, and the Eu char Koey that arrived super late!!

Chocolate Jamboree

2009-05-12T11:20:00.004+08:00

“I didn't fight my way to the top of the food chain to be a vegetarian”

To all my faithful blog stalkers.... the one that comments on every article I write or even the one that ‘claim’ they have written comments worth three paragraphs but didn't know how to submit, you all know who you are, and also not forgetting my excellent assistance chef that made all this possible :)

A lot of experimenting and preparation has been done for the up coming Chocolate gathering. It’s often said that pictures speak a thousand words, so I'll just let the pictures do the talking......

Adieus. Till we all feast again!

The Ultimate Peanut Butter Cookie

Cranberry Scones

Penne Carbonara

Triple Chocolate Brownies

Cabbage Kimchi

Run Away....

2009-05-06T15:48:00.002+08:00

I long to run away from here
Run and run and never look back
To let everything vaporize behind me
Like dreams that had never existed

The wind is cajoling me to be blown away
To let my weightless soul take flight
But the fortresses surrounding me are tall
And the sturdy rocks are trapping me beneath

I long to risk into the completely unknown
Tempted and seduced by its anonymity
But will I be able to turn and run away?
Night is eternal and darkness always reigns

Jesus, take the wheel

2009-05-05T15:14:00.005+08:00

This song was performed by Danny Goeky, one of this year's American Idol contestant. Although he's not my favourite, I suspect he's gonna win this year. Anyway, I like this song for its beautiful lyrics. Take time to enjoy.......

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Goin' home to see her mama & her daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It'd been a long hard year

She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
She was going way too fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was so scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time

She bowed her head to pray
She said, "I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight"

Oh, Jesus, take the wheel
Oh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me
Oh, why, oh

It's raining Beaches.....

2009-04-09T15:20:00.008+08:00

I was on vacation in Australia last week, travelling from coast to coast. I’ve never seen so many gorgeous beaches in my entire life. Well, people will actually find it quite surprising considering I live on an island my whole life and it’s constantly promoted as a beach holiday destination.

I first arrived in Brisbane and headed straight to Surfer’s Paradise. Well, the place was breathtaking and very unique. It lives up to its name, a real paradise on earth. What’s ironic is that you see the stunning beach ahead with very crazy waves but when you turn behind, you’re suddenly surrounded by skyscrapers. The sand was so soft that your foot sinks about half and inch with every step. It’s also a new sight for me to see local ozzies surfing the waves. It’s the perfect vacation place to relax and unwind. You can just spend time walking along the beach with the sound of the waves and constant wind. It will take all your troubles away.

Surfer's Paradise

My friend and I then flew from Brisbane to Melbourne. We started driving along the south coast of Victoria which also known as the Great Ocean Road. It was a whole day’s drive from Melbourne city with lots of twist and turns and overlooking the never ending cost with stormy seas. Our first stop was Apollo Bay, a small but beautiful town with excellent food. The beach was just as remarkable as the one in Surfer’s Paradise but somehow the sand texture was different and the waves just slightly lower. I was equally astounded with the place. I’ve guess that’s because I’ve never seen so many beautiful beaches in the space of a few days.

Drive along Great Ocean Road

They say it’s not the destination that counts but the journey. But for the great ocean road, I would say otherwise. The whole day journey was a little bumpy at times due to the long windy road but its all worth it in the end when u reached the famed Twelve Apostles. Only that there were not twelve but rather eight jutting rocks in the ocean! Nevertheless, it’s still a sight to behold and sunset was glorious.

12 Apostles

Sunset at 12 Apostles

From Melbourne we travelled west to Perth. It’s said that Western Australia has the most beautiful sunset in the world due to its geographic location. Well, this will be my second sunset in a week. If I continue at this rate, I’ll be a PhD in sunsets. Hehe…… The place I went is a small suburb called Cottesloe but there is nothing “small” about it. The ocean is more greenish and warm and the waves are smaller compared to the gold coast. With Surfer’s Paradise, the beach is a blanket of pure white.

We spend the whole afternoon lying on the soft green grass, relaxing and falling asleep while the sunlight hits against us but at the same time having the luxury of the cool wind against our cheeks. That is what I would call living life to the fullest!

Cottesloe Beach

Sunset at Cottesloe Beach

Australia is truly blessed with such beautiful beaches all around. I guess that’s the advantage when your whole country is an island or should I say a continent. It was a real adventure for me, three beaches in a week and probably many hundreds to go….. I can’t wait for my next down under holiday.

Spring in Penang

2009-03-11T12:19:00.006+08:00

I never thought that Penang is so beautiful. I guess its right when people say you seldom appreciate what's in front of you......

Its Friday

2009-02-13T06:30:00.002+08:00

Legend has it that if 13 people sit down to dinner together, one will die within the year. The Turks so disliked the number 13 that it was practically expunged from their vocabulary. If you have 13 letters in your name, you will have the devil's luck like Jack the Ripper and Charles Manson.

In numerology, the number twelve is considered the number of completeness, as reflected in the twelve months of the year, twelve signs of the zodiac, twelve hours of the clock, twelve tribes of Israel, twelve Apostles of Jesus, twelve gods of Olympus, whereas the number thirteen was considered irregular and therefore transgressing this completeness.

The superstition can be traced back to Norse mythology. Apparently Friday was named after Frigga, the free-spirited goddess of love and fertility. When Norse and Germanic tribes converted to Christianity, Frigga was banished to a mountaintop and labeled a witch. It was believed that every Friday, the spiteful goddess convened a meeting with eleven other witches, plus the devil - a gathering of thirteen – to plot ill turns of fate for the coming week. For many centuries in Scandinavia, Friday was known as "Witches' Sabbath."

Others say Friday's bad reputation goes all the way back to the Garden of Eden. It was supposedly on a Friday that Eve tempted Adam with the forbidden fruit. Tradition also holds that the Great Flood began on a Friday; God tongue-tied the builders of the Tower of Babel on a Friday; the Temple of Solomon was destroyed on a Friday and of course, Chris was crucified on a Friday.

In Britain, both Friday and the number 13 were once closely associated with capital punishment. Friday was the conventional day for public hangings, and there were supposedly 13 steps leading up to the noose.

Ultimately, the complex folklore of Friday the 13 doesn't have much to do with people's fears in this century. If you think about it, bad things, big and small, happens all the time. But if you get in an accident, lose your wallet or even spill your coffee, you’ll probably blame it on today. After all, it’s Friday the 13.

If I should die before I wake

2009-02-06T12:54:00.002+08:00

It’s the 21 century and we embrace it with open arms. As the human race progresses, we pride ourselves as being democratic, cultured and urbanized. We’ve certainly come a long way from our ancestor’s, from clicking stones to start a fire, to clicking a mouse to purchase groceries. But if you stop and take a look around, are we truly civilized?

Just take a look at the Israeli-Palestinian war. The conflict can be traced back to the late 19th century and I’m sure they will continue their fight into the 22nd century. Obviously we still haven’t learned much after 200 years. Where is the development of human race? Oh wait, I guess we did progress from a certain point of view… we do not need to throw sticks and stones now. It’s all about rockets and mortar shell fire and the burden of peace now falls on others such as the US, Europe and Arab allies. Even with these countries at play, real peace cannot be obtained until the Israelis and Palestinians are able to rise to a level of strategic, forward-looking maturity thinking.

Were we different from our forefathers? Yes, we have tall building and can fly across continents in matters of hours but our values have regressed. In fact our hopes and faith have diminished to the point that people don’t believe in miracles, not even if it’s being performed right before our very eyes! Israelis and Palestinians do not win wars because of their military prowess; they won the wars because they refused to surrender. Not to fight meant certain destruction, and, despite impossible odds, they simply did what they did without thinking about the probable outcome.

Imagine life in a warfare country, the agony, ambiguity and slaughtering. Civilian are dying everyday while world leaders are sitting behind their desk with misguided search for world peace. We are educated fools who create wars and injustice and then trying to find a solution for the very same issues we created. With greater development and sophistication in guns and weapons technology, we may be wiping ourselves out of this planet even before a decent peace solution can be conceived. I may just perish without ever knowing……….

A new year

2009-01-02T08:05:00.000+08:00

I stared at the huge clock in silence
Every second my heart beats faster
Blink and you will miss a beat
Always keep one of your eyes open

The passage of time is extraordinary
It’s definite yet unpredictable
That one pivotal second
To mark the end of a beginning

I look forward to many things this year
But I guess life should not be planned
It should be liberated and impulsive
And to delight in every breath you take

New Moon

2008-12-12T14:56:00.002+08:00

A vampire that doesn’t drink blood? It’s really not what I had hoped for to be sure. I guess I am prejudiced, being Anne Rice’s fan with a preconceived notion of what a vampire should and should not be. I generally love the darker genre and I’m kind of disappointed that Stephanie Meyer’s vampires were not dark, sinister or even evil. In short, they have too much conscience for a soulless creature.

But I would still give credit to Stephanie Meyer. The main character is extremely compelling and the protagonist is so consumed with her crush on that she blocks everything else. Stephanie is a young adult writer so I shouldn’t complain about the teen angst and some cheesy lines. Its teenage romance with a twist as the protagonist is in love with is a vampire. It may appeal to teenagers who reads fantasies and darker books, but might also catch the attention of those that enjoy a more realistic fiction like Gossip Girl……

* Note: below contain spoilers for Twilight and New Moon

Twilight allows the reader to experience a whole new outlook on vampires and how they interact around mankind. Of course, personally I don’t think any vampire could be better than Anne’s Rice Vampire Lestat. But I think, the vampire, Edward Cullen, is captivating in his own ways; extraordinary beauty, ancient genteelness, mystifying and of course the ability to read minds. In a way, the book was more than I expected; the love feels so real, and at its heart, it's more a love story between two beings than anything else.

As Shakespeare knew, love burns high when thwarted by obstacles. The Twilight saga continues in New Moon. Shakespeare was probably an inspiration in this book as Stephanie often quotes Romeo and Juliet and comparing Edward and Bella with it. In this continuation, Edward leaves Bella, leaving her heartbroken and without hope. With only time on her hands, she develops her friendship with Jacob Black. The middle section is a rather slow, as Stephanie introduces another new mythical creature, werewolf. However, it still page turning as you are kept anxious about the ending. When will Edward come back? Well for Edward’s fans, it’s really a bummer since he only reappears at the very end.

New Moon ended at a cliffhanger; Bella has to choose between her love for Edward and her friendship with Jacob and her decision has the potential to ignite the ageless struggle between vampires and werewolves. But Bella has got an even more significant decision to make: life or death. Which will she choose?

I shall let you know after reading Eclipse.

Change

2008-08-25T13:35:00.002+08:00

If nothing ever changed, there'd be no butterflies. ~Author Unknown~

I was never interested in politics; I find it dull, boring and irrelevant compared to my melodramatic life. Let’s face it, Malaysia has declared itself to be a democratic county, but for the last 51 years, we have voted for the same exact same government and the only democracy we practice is if the ruling government gets a 2/3 majority.

Unexpectedly, the March general election has altered the course of our political landscape radically. Everyday political news is becoming hotter than the day before. With the media attention, every one is talking about politics from CEOs to bloggers and right down to the man sipping teh tarik at the roadside mamak. With such buzz everyday, how could I possibly be unfazed by it?

Today, Malaysia is at a crossroad. For the people of Permatang Pauh, it is Anwar versus Arif. But for the rest of the Malaysians, the choices are not black and white, we are after all a multiracial and multicultural county and everyone wants their individual rights and interest protected. On the other hand, if we put everything aside and focus on the bigger picture, the question is this, “Do we want an outright change in government to clean up and reform the entire county OR maintaining the current status quo and live like we have been for the last 51 years?”

This is the Mother of all By-elections. The result will determine the fate of Malaysians and its future generations. So what do you think of Anwar? Are Malaysians prepared for a leader with such confusing contradictions? He claims to be a target of a “systematic character assassination campaign”. But can we all be absolutely sure?

Some believed that it will be an unmitigated disaster for Malaysia if Anwar were to become prime minister, while others strongly feel that he will lead Malaysia to a better tomorrow. So which is it? I don’t have an answer. He may be a flawed character but history has shown us that no leaders are perfect. With the Mother of All By-elections on our hands now, Malaysian must explore, review and decide on this one man, the man that could one day be the future PM.

The window of opportunity for a change is small and narrow, but nevertheless its here.
It is now.

TIME

2008-08-15T11:51:00.000+08:00

As I relax here with my friends sipping my afternoon tea

I come to realise that time is not a river but a sea

Time is not an hourglass, not a gift, not our friend

From the beginning, time is never ours in any sense

Except for that one single second that holds our attention

And then it slips away forever beyond our grasp....

Misery

2008-08-07T10:03:00.000+08:00

You’re probably thinking Stephen King and the outstanding performance of Kathy Bates as a psychotic nurse who saved the famous writer and held him captive in a remote area, forcing him to write the novel they was she wants it written.

Well, in a different time and place, I know a person like that nurse. She keeps us caged in our cubicle and you cannot be late for even one minute, sets her own rules and wants every single one of us the follow it strictly. Then she will claim disappointment on those to fail to meet her standards. Sigh, my boss, the evil spawn that was put on earth to torture mankind.

I work in a very liberated company that allows free dressing but my evil boss has imposed on her team to wear formal. Her reasoning? To make her team “special”. What the f***. Oh yea, I just had it from her today, she criticized my new Vincci sandals. I wanted to open my mouth and argued but hey, why waste my precious time. She said she doesn’t care even if it’s a LV, her team should never be caught with sandals!

To hell with what other employees wear but her team has to be “outstanding” and be “different” from the rest. Supposedly to create an image and to prepare us for the “future” when we become managers. Well, FYI, she wore junk and was a fashion faux pas before she was a manager. She couldn’t even match colors decently.

That wicked witch is really something…. meticulous, malicious, a fawning sycophant and oh, did I mention that she can’t speak proper English? She put an “S” behind every damn word that comes out from her mouth, “Works harder, more works wont kills you”, “I’m so prouds of my teams”. Yup, if she had more than one team, I’m sure she’ll be assassinated within a month.

Let me tell you this, she can hate me for what I say, deny me as I contradict her ignorance. In the long run, it really won't matter….. Her limited vision can only grasp the surface of my mind.

Kimchi Jjiggae

2008-08-04T08:14:00.000+08:00

This is one of the most common home dishes for common people in Korea.

Simple and delicious.

Ingredients:

2 tbsp sesame oil
1 tbsp chopped garlic
100g chicken fillet cut to small pieces
20 clams
200g Kimchi
1 tbsp of gojujang (Korean spicy bean paste)

1 box of silken tofu

A handful of soaked seaweed

1 stalks of spring onions – cut into short lengths

Salt and pepper to taste

Method

1. In a hot non-stick pan, pour sesame oil, lightly brown the garlic
2. Add in chicken and clams and stir-fry till they change colour.

3. Add in kimchi and gojujang to the same pan and stir-fry for a while.

4. Add in tofu, seaweed and spring onions.

5. Pour in enough of hot water just to cover the contents. Bring this to a boil, season with salt, pepper and pinch of ajinomoto.

Baechu Kimchi

2008-06-27T15:45:00.000+08:00

A Korean Sauerkraut....

Autumn in Korea is Kimjang, and that means Kimchi making time! Kimchi, along with rice, is the bedrock of Korean cuisine. Koreans have been salting vegetables in one form or another for over thousand years as a way of preserving the harvest for the hard Korean winters. The flavor depends on ingredients, condiments, the amount of salt, and level of spice used in each region. I love it raw, fried, stewed, boiled or even with the typical Malaysian maggie mee.

There are over hundreds type of Kimchi in Korea, everything from cube raddish to scallion to cucumber but the most common is cabbage (Baechu kimchi). Hundreds of types are made and each family has its own favorite recipe.

So what are you waiting for? Let’s start making our own Baechu Kimchi.

Ingredients
200g coarse salt or sea salt
8 liter of water
2 medium Chinese or Napa Cabbage
4 bulb of garlic, cloves separated and peeled
4 inches of young ginger
90ml fish sauce
300g Korean chili powder
1 ½ tablespoon of sugar
1 Asian radish, peeled and grated
1 bunch of scallion

Method
1. Dissolve salt into the water. Soak cabbage in the salt water for 6-8 hours
2. Combine garlic, ginger and fish sauce in a food processor or blender until finely minced.

3. In a large bowl, add chili powder to the blended mixture. Then add in sugar, radish and scallion. Toss gently and thoroughly

4. Remove cabbage from water and rinse thoroughly. Drain cabbage in colander, squeezing as much water from the leaves as possible.

5. Take cabbage and stuff radish mixture between the leaves, working from outside in. Do not overstuff but make sure radish mixture fills the leaves adequately and evenly.

6. When the entire cabbage is done, take one larger leave and wrap tightly around the rest of the cabbage. Keep in a jar.
7. Store in cool dry place for 2-3 days before serving. Remove kimchi from jar and slice into 1 inch length pieces. Refrigerate after open.

Notes:
- You can vary the amount of seasonings according to your taste. Some people recommend cayenne or red pepper flakes to substitute Korean chili flakes, but the flavor won’t really be the same.
- In Korea pieces of seafood such as oysters, anchovies or salted shrimp are often added to the kimchi to give it a rounder, more pungent flavor. Try adding 2-3 tbsp of ground dried shrimp if you like.
- While fermenting, the kimchi gives off carbon dioxide and you may need to open the container lids periodically to relieve pressure.
- Kimchi stored past 1-2 weeks gets softer and more pungent and is good in soup and stews.

Evil is a point of view

2008-06-21T11:07:00.000+08:00

Vampires…. a mythical creature that existed for centuries and is written in most culture back in the 1800 centuries. However, as the human race evolved over the centuries, vampire’s existence has been diminished to nothing but fiction. Nevertheless, the fascination for vampires has not ceased but instead more books and movies are made about them.

I confess I’m an ardent vampire fan. I have been following religiously on stories written about vampires. Still, nothing that I have even seen or read could surpass Anne Rice’s Vampire Chronicles. I liked the first book so much that I went and bought the sequels, and I loved them even more. I loved their power, their restless intensity. Almost all vampire stories were told from the viewpoint of the humans who encountered and had to defeat the vampires. Unexpectedly, Anne Rice changed all that.

It’s the first book ever written from a vampire’s point of view, they were the central characters, not humans. Suddenly, vampires were not just an evil bloodsucker that we want to slay. They became that glittering, dazzling rule-breaker and outsider who has gained ascendancy over time and place. I was drawn to the protagonist, Vampire Lestat, stylish, arrogant, flamboyant, powerful and sexy. He has a "twisted nature...full of unnatural lusts and passions [but] suffers the torments of the damned while committing his nefarious deeds"

Anne Rice is a brilliant story teller. As I read on, I was amazed that by how philosophical the books were and how much they probed into the questions of human nature and human existence. She evokes a theme of dualism through Lestat, a monster, yet he gains the reader’s sympathies because he deplores what he is and agonizes over how to become a "good" vampire; he is a killer with a conscience. The theme constantly battles on how to retain one’s humanity, no longer human but is still conscious, functional and capable of learning from experiences.

The vampire expresses the darker side of life better, and with more elegance than any other creature. Even though Lestat loses faith in God, he finds he is "still an immortal being who must find his own reasons to exist". As the reader follows his quest for meaning, one finds that his existential dilemma is the same for us all; the fact that he's a vampire only exaggerates his alienation and his need to establish his own significance.

Vampire's Kiss

2008-06-18T10:17:00.000+08:00

People who cease to believe in God or goodness altogether still believe in the devil. I don't know why. No, I do indeed know why. Evil is always possible. And goodness is eternally difficult.

-Anne Rice, Interview with the Vampire-

It's all in the name, Vampire's Kiss.

A very zesty cocktail. Cheers!

2 oz Vodka

1/2 oz dry Gin

1/2 oz Dry Vermouth

1 tblsp Tequila

1 pinch Salt

2 oz Tomato juice

Mix everything together and shake with ice.

Strain over ice in a martini glass.

Korean Cruisine

2008-06-02T08:29:00.000+08:00

I went to Seoul city and I fell in love with Korean food. The uniqueness of Korean food is of course their Kimchi. There are more than one hundred different types of kimchi available. Generally they differ from region to region, depending on harvest and weather conditions. The Southern Provinces tend to use more salt and seafood so that the taste is stronger and sweeter as compared to the Northern Province where the kimchi taste less salty and milder.

My first day in Korea was in Jeju Island. I had the luxury to taste the best seashell steamboat. During my stay in Seoul, I had tried all sorts of local food from their famous Jajangmyeon (black bean paste noodle) to Bulgogi (barbeque), Jjigae (Stew), Pajeon and Kimchijeon (savory pancakes) and Ddeokbokki (rice cake). Korean cuisine has distinctive flavors that can be sweet, sour, spicy and salty all in one bite. It’s truly a food haven. I am definitely visiting Seoul again in the near future.

David Cook

2008-05-26T13:08:00.000+08:00

Hey gals, thanks for the comments. I really appreciate the support and shall keep the spirit up and stay positive…..

Been a while since my last post, hope nobody thought I vanished…. Well, lately I’ve been indulging in American Idol, and I should say that the time was well spent as this is the first time that the contestant that I like won. Congrats David Cook!

For those who are not fans of the show or him, I still would recommend that you take some time to listen to Billie Jean and Always be my Baby. It’s amazing the way he personalized those to songs to something incredibly beautiful and meaningful.

Searching

2008-04-29T13:11:00.000+08:00

streaks of sunlight piercing through my windows
a promise of another day that i cannot forsake
the monotony of life continues as it always does
the vicious cycle that I can't seem to break

i opened my eyes and yet i could not see
the beauty that is right in front of me
trapped in a world so bitter and cold
an emptiness so vast that never be filled

what is life? should there be a meaning to it?
do others spend their whole life searching?
i want to believe that there is more out there
if only i have the endurance to continue seeking....

Only in the Dark

2008-04-02T11:46:00.000+08:00

I went to church last weekend to watch Juwita Suwito's concert. It was very different from any other concerts that I've been to. Well, the obvious fact is that it was held in a church with about hundred people only, no crazy humans jumping around or psychotic fans screaming. But I love it. It exceeded my expectations. Her vocal was very powerful and they lyrics were all very inspiring. I was not really a big fan of hers but I am now.

There was one song in particular that I particularly like. Only in the Dark. It was about how our every struggles become too unbearable to the point where you just want to give up. I felt that I could connect to that because that is where I am now, in the dark and not being able to see the road ahead. Perhaps I'm in the wrong job, wrong company, I can't really identify. It’s just simply wrong. People always tell me that things will be better but I'm beginning to question, is there always a light at the end of every tunnel? What if that tunnel has a dead end?

2008-03-15T10:35:00.000+08:00

I do not see myself as a blogger, and if it wasn’t because of Trevor, this page would have never existed. So I must thank him for encouraging a technology laggard like me to modernize myself and be apart of the virtual community.

This space is for all the dark souls hidden within every one. The passion for darker things in life…. Hate, Fear, Anger, Obsessions, Torment…… All human feelings that we face everyday yet sometimes impossible to shout out loud!